Immaculately effortless it has been in achieving this feat.
Once again I am trying to push myself to sleep instead of it coming naturally to me. Neither can I diagnose this on my own, nor do I want to see a psychiatrist. For human behavior is something which cannot be understood vicariously. He might give me some make believe explanation of my condition and a couple of placebos which will do nothing but temporarily suppress my condition.
So instead of seeking the answers from those white coat monks I decided to confront my problem on my own and find answers to it.
Last night i decided that i will take a day off. The mere thought of it took away half of the stress. I retired to bed at around eleven with 'Life of Pi' resting on my chest. I fell asleep pretty easily. Perhaps because I knew I wasn't going to get up for office the other day.Perhaps because I knew there won't be anything to do the other day but to sit back and relax.
It might appear that I have got one of those typical annoying bosses mentioned in those horror stories that haunt the cafeterias in workplaces. But it isn't that way. In fact had it been that way, I'd have left the company long ago. On the contrary, my boss is one of the few reasons why I am still in this company. It is just that my job involves speaking to people and getting jobs done. This is sometimes a real problem when there are real dumbnuts on the other end. But as god created life-giving rivers, so he did sewer pipes, though indirectly but he did. And this is a fact we have to live with.
I am writing a blog post after a long time that too to vent out my emotions.
Tomorrow I will be back at my desk flushing those sewer pipes and occasionally finding reason not to get stressed out because of few niceness that I often come across.
