Its interesting when you find something what you were looking for but at a place miles away from where you live that too when you have stopped looking for it. I was at Camp yesterday, with one of my friends, waiting for few others to join us. We had planned to go to 'Hidden Place' a nice hangout place at Koregaon Park. But there is an unwritten rule in the book that the difference between the time at which people join in for a party is minimum 2 hrs so we had to look for something to kill time. We decided to check out a music shop.
Let me rewind back a little to connect the story with what I want to say. It was around November and we were geared up for interviews for allotment of Dept in our company. The very next day, we were ready and excited. When the final results were out, I was shocked. Everyone got dept except for two of us. I and another guy from Pune were rejected by all dept. That was an even big shocker when we recalled that we weren't asked anyhting relevant to our field or area of expertise. But unfortunately it was done, the damage and the results, both stood out staring us bleakly at our faces.Later i was told that was rejected because i had no aim in my life. That I couldn't convince them what I really wanted to do. I was totally lost after this incident. This event totally changed me. It seemed I had lost something which I didn't have a clue about. But only until yesterday when I met Vatayan.
Vatayan is a percussionist in Pune who chanced to own the music shop where I went. I wanted to try flute and he helped me. I put a bamboo flute to my lips and tried some notes. We were discussing about flutes when he pointed out something totally irrelevant to the context.
He said , "Don't mind me telling this but I think you lack faith in yourself"
I was stunned for a moment.
He continued, "I feel so after listening to your flute play." he paused
"Music tells a lot about a persons character. What he feels from inside. What you have in those inside you is reflected in your notes."
I thanked him for his frank opinion and took a leave from him. When I returned home after the party, I contemplated his words. I realised he was true to an astonishing extent. I certainly had lost the faith in me after that incident. The problem with losing something is that the pain is pathetically excruciating when you don't have a clue what you have lost. Yesterday I came to know what I lost. Now I need to find it. Thanks Vatayan
